Again those headaches. I hate them. I really do. Especially when they appeared because of depressions. Disgusting thing, really.

Today I came back earlier from school because I had that enormous headache. I think it came from the sun. I was out whole day long, searching for the documents for my new ID. Yeah, it definitely must be from the sun. It wasn't hard for me to go home, if you consider my running away from him. It's a funny thing actually. I thought I love him, I asked him to make up with me but he's not so sure. So, as the time went by I realized I don't really love him, I am just into him, but that's not the same. Definitely not the same... Anyway, he's not sure if we can be together again because there's this girl with whom he was when he tried to get over me, and they broke up and he's not sure if he's still into her. Blah, blah. Anyways, the point is he's not sure... I tried everything. I even drawn him Commandant Marc, which is both our favorite comic book character. But it didn't help. So with as much dignity as I was left with, I started ignoring him. Yesterday I even slammed the door of my classroom when I wanted to go out and saw him standing in front of the door. It might have been stupid thing to do, but I was left with no choice at all. Actually, I was, I could just as well pass him by, ignoring him, but I didn't consider it as an option. So, my early going out from school did me just fine.

When I got home, I immediately went in bed and slept for a whole half an hour! Can you imagine that? Me sleeping? Yeah, I was surprised by myself as well... When my mother woke me up, I wondered what to do. Eventually, I've decided to watch Bridget Jones' diary, as I was clearly in somewhat similar situation as her. I cried... And laughed... And I fell in love, again. Yes, I fell in love with life and love itself. I mean, come on, who can not love life and love itself? They're really something. They surprise you when you hope the least. So, I'm going to stop hoping... for a while. Maybe something happens. We'll see... If nothing, my headaches will stop.